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Today is my first day to be alone with myself and Nathan. I suppose it is going okay. I guess I had to face myself at some point. I'm trying to keep busy, but it's easier to not think about things when there is someone around to talk to. Anyway.
The doctor cleared me yesterday to do whatever I feel like I need to do, so I went on a walk with Nathan this morning. It is very cloudy here, so the walk was nice. I stopped at the park and let Nathan run. He had a good time. Whenever someone would walk by on the path he would stop, wave at them, and say hi. He only tried to chase someone once. ;-)
I am trying to get used to the idea that I can't get pregnant again for at least nine months to a year, and that is proving difficult. My doctor recommended that we wait that long, and he generally doesn't tell me what to do. He only recommended six months after Nathan, so I'm not sure exactly why he wants me to wait that long other than maybe my body needs a chance to completely be back to normal before we begin this journey again. He said that I will start out with a specialist, although my doctor will "co-manage" me with the specialist. My doctor doesn't do cerclages (stitching the cervix shut), so that is why I will be seeing a specialist. Can I help it that I was so happy about having two little boys close together? I guess Nathan will just have to be an only child for a while. Why couldn't I have been one of those people who only want one kid?